Scariest Day Ever

So last Wednesday we were working on potty training and Mia had the sniffles so we decided to skip music class. Mia was eating raisins and Rudy (our dog) was sleeping on the couch. Mia went to get a raisin and on the way back over decided to lay her head on Rudy. He snapped and bit Mia in the face. At first I didn't think he actually bit her until I looked and saw blood everywhere. There was so much blood and I was freaking out. I grabbed a clean diaper and started to apply pressure. I grabbed my phone and called 9-1-1. I gave the operator my info and said that I had to go because I had to call my partner. I called Jenny and she came racing home. I waited for what seemed like forever for the ambulance to get here. Jenny got here at the same time. Mia and I went to the hospital with Jenny following behind us. Mia was screaming the whole time it was terrible. We got to the hospital and they came in and checked her out.

She had two small puncture wounds above her eye three large cuts under her eye, one that needed 5 stitches, a hole through her eye lid and a tear where the eye lashes are. All in all she had to have 7 stitches, we had to hold her down while 3 different people tried 3 different times to get an I.V. in her. She was screaming mama and even Gwen it was one of the most difficult things I have ever had to do. Then we were sent to U of M to be sure there was no damage to eye. We drive 90 minutes to U of M and wait for hours for the optometrist. They dilated her eyes looked in the back of them. It was a total of 12 hours with no nap and no food. In the end they said that we could do surgery for a small tear in her lash line or we could see how it would heal. We chose to let it heal. Then we headed home. We were all exhauseted physically and emotionally.

We came home to a happy dog who wanted to be sure Mia was ok. He ran over to her and kissed her face and she hugged him. She wasn't scared of him at all. It was like they both knew that it was an accident, a split second decision Boo Boo made that changed all of our lives forever. Jenny and I knew what we had to do, but it didn't make things an easier.

The next day I took Rudy to be euthanized. It was the hardest thing I have ever done. I had him for 10 years and he had been a loyal dog. He was severely abused before I got him and has always been a little grumpy. It took him a long time to trust people even me totally. Before Mia he was our baby and we spoiled him. We both loved him so much. I feel really guilty about everything. He had always been really good with Mia and put up with her constant tormenting until last Wednesday.

Mia has been asking about Boo Boo all the time. She will say, "Boo Boo hurt." and point to her eye. Then, "Boo Boo gone." She really misses him and asks for him a couple time a day. We told her that Boo Boo hurt her and he had to go away and he went to heaven where he can't hurt anybody and nobody can hurt him. That it is okay to miss him and we all still love him and he still loves us.

I keep thinking if only I had done this or that. If I had been watching closer or made Rudy get off the couch then all this wouldn't have happened. Mia wouldn't have to possibly have a scar and gone through so much pain and my dog would still be here. So that is that and I am tired of missing my dog, being sad, and feeling guilty.